I mean, what would the Psalms and the Bible be without the sometimes-brutal honesty of the failures, the weakness, and the struggles? I would have so much less hope for myself in certain situations if I weren’t able to look at the life of David who, for crying out loud, was a man after God’s own heart, but was a scoundrel in many moments and many ways. And to be able to go, “God, thank you! You didn’t edit out his foolishness and his stupidity at different points.” So I was like, “God, I want to be able to be honest,” but I really felt it was so important to be honoring, whether it’s my parents or my relationship with Mary Beth. And so we had a lot of conversations about that with the rest of my family to say, “Look, I’m going to share this. Are you guys are okay with this? I feel like there’s an important reason for it, but I don’t have to if it feels like it’s over-sharing in any way.” So it was definitely a family process in that regard.

CCM: What do you think fans will be most surprised about you after finishing this book?
That is a great question and a good one to maybe put somewhere on my Facebook. I’ve been so honest through the years, well, not at this level of detail, but honest about our struggles and our journey together. I’ve shared so honestly about a lot of things, but I kind-of think that people will be surprised to just hear me share about the insecurities and the uncertainty about even my own abilities and those kind of things. I think there might be a sense of, “Man, I just—I didn’t get that.” Here’s guy who’s really wrestling to stay humble with what God gave him and all that. I mean, I’ve walked off stage and in tears going, “I don’t know if I’m supposed to do this. Is this right?” Or even just sitting in a room with my pastors and friends going, “I feel like I’m just a failure. I don’t know if I’m good enough at this,” or whatever. I think that might be the thing that people find most interesting and surprising about my journey. But I don’t know, that’s a great question. It’ll be fun to see what people discover.

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