Life is a series of steps. Forward, backward,
As children, we step into make-believe
worlds of dress-up and crayons where
anything is possible.
Later, we step into school, new friends and
the gradual separation from the life we were
Later still, we step into new jobs, new
passions, new relationships and, for many,
Lindsay McCaul has been dreaming of and
preparing for that step for years. When the
day finally came, she walked down the aisle
with her father, who tenderly and graciously
gave her hand, and then stepped back.
Just a short while later, Lindsay was
present for her father’s final step into his
A former colonel in Vietnam, he was
exposed to Agent Orange and developed a
blood cancer, and exceeded the maximum
life expectancy of ten years.
“He did all he could to spend as much time
with his family,” says Lindsay. “As much as
you mentally prepare, you’re still not ready.”
Her father’s death shook her to the core.
“I knew God was working this together for
good,” she says, “but there are those seasons
when you have no idea what’s going on.
Those are the moments you choose what you
believe. It’s easy to stay close to God when
everything goes as planned, but when things
don’t, you have to decide to believe that He
loves you and is working for good. I’m taking
it a day at a time.”
Those first days of grief were also Lindsay’s
first days of marriage.
“It was a difficult two years,” she shares.
“There has been a lot of change, and we’ve
both grown so much. We’ve been blessed in
many ways. Knowing my dad was sick, I was
praying that my husband would get to know
him. It has been such a gift to me that he
knew him even a little. It’s been cool to see
the way he’s honored my dad.”
As she and her husband honored the life of
her earthly father, Lindsay turned to music to
also honor her Heavenly Father.
“Music has always been huge in my life,”
says Lindsay. “I remember driving to the
hospital to see my dad, listening to Cindy
Morgan, Nichole Nordeman. I started writing
songs for this record, One More Step, primarily
after he passed away. I wrote songs that are
hopeful and prayerful — songs for people in
Not interested in a fabricated persona of
contentment or healing, Lindsay did what
very few artists are brave enough to do — she
embraced her pain and let it bleed onto the
pages, into the melodies, until it, too, became
a beautiful thing.
“Jason Gray once said, ‘If pain is something
that God uses to draw us closer to Him, it’s a
holy experience.’ We tend to ignore it, mask
it or explain it away instead of just sitting in
it and receiving it as a gift from the Lord. It’s
a strange gift — opposite of our walk with the
“The world says life is easy, be beautiful,
be happy, make tons of money. Put yourself
first. But the Bible says just the opposite. The
‘easy’ is what we’re sojourning toward. Pain
is a holy experience, and I wanted to write
songs that would be there for people who
From beginning to end, the songs do just
that. Poignant, touching imagery comes alive
with identifiable lyrics and confident but not
abrasive melodies, delivered with Lindsay’s
warm, throaty alto.
“I wanted to write songs for the album with
deep lyrics but also something people would
want to listen to,” she says.
With warm, heart-wrenching ballads
punctuating the overall upbeat track listing,
the album takes on a fresh, yet comfortable,
vibe under the guidance of writers and
producers such as Jeff Pardo, Josh Wilson and
Despite the sadness, unsteadiness of life
and an overall emotional wipe-out, Lindsay
clearly recalls one of the last conversations
she had with her father — the kind that gets
you centered and pushes you on day after day.
“Dad said, ‘Looking back on a short
lifetime, so far, what have you learned?’
Everybody knows they’re dying, but nobody
really thinks they are. We have to number
Lindsay’s taking each of those days in
stride — one at a time.
“Life is a marathon,” she says. “I just pray
for grace to make it through this one day. I’m
trying to stop focusing on tomorrow but to
live in a way that’s wise.
“Grace is grace, and the Lord is near the
broken-hearted even in the midst of grief and
aching and questioning. I won’t know why
all these things happened at the same time.
It’s hard for our finite brains to understand,
but it’s a huge comfort to me knowing His
mercies are new every morning.”
And as Lindsay continues her own journey,
day by day and step by step, she does so with
her full reliance on the One who has already
prepared the way.
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